sometimes

things i wish would happen even though they never have and probably won't:

* When I'm working really late a friend will show up unannounced and bring a 6 pack and ask to help, not distract. With a six pack it's bound to be fun by the end anyway. My work isn't boring.

*When I'm cleaning the studio late into the night a friend will show up unannounced and grab windex and paper towels and say "how can I help?" It's really fun, I try to make it like a dance party, except I'm always alone.

*When I'm really sick my boyfriend would be selfless enough to come and see if I'm feeling okay. He doesn't have to stay long, I wouldn't want them to get sick. He could go back to work after five minutes, but being alone when you're sick is just the most awful thing on the planet.

*Someone would acknowledge how hard I work. Or how little I sleep in order to work that hard. Or how many meals I accidentally skip. Or that I'm only 22. Or that I relaly didn't get a regular childhood because I've been working like a slave since I was 9.

*That friends, who don't stay in touch or try to stay in touch, would stop saying they miss me, or stop mutually calling us bad friends. Instead, reach out every now and again. Please.

*That I would live long enough to meet a soul mate and have a wedding. I hope I can remember all the beautiful things that I want to happen at my wedding. I don't think I'll really have time to plan it well. I hope for that too - enough time to plan my wedding.

to name a few.