one and only

i know it ain't easy giving up your heart.
i know it ain't easy giving up your heart.
i know it ain't easy giving up your heart.
i know it ain't easy giving up your heart.
trust me.

Adele + One and Only

This year's love

So I actually do have real-person feelings.

I'm glad for this realization. I suddenly feel much more alive and human. Much more "OK". Much more like it might be acceptable to let these tears that are burning behind my eyes...come out.

I can face these feelings. And for that, I feel strong.

Here's the thing though. It doesn't change the fact that you're gone. And as aware as I am that I just want to curl up in a ball and never get out of bed because of you, I'm also disgustingly aware of the fact that you are long gone, and never coming back. I cringe at the idea that I'll need to slowly burn through my day and face the numerous reminders of your existence.

And I cringe, because I know, I'm headed right back to the place I was before I met you. Unopen, deeply removed, and completely disbelieving in love, life and future.

I'm sorry.

My this has turned into a weapfest.

painful

The painful realization that your words actually make him sick.


That you are not special in any way.

That you will not be one of those fairy tale stories.


That you are completely and utterly alone.



That yeah, it just happened...again.


That you trust people too much, and love too easily.




That love does not exist.