heels down

I swear I have my heels down and am being dragged into the new year.

As excited as I am for some huge changes, both in act and theory, I am increasingly shocked by the speed at which the last year went by, and thus begin to fear I'm getting old, getting slow.

Heels down.

don't stop

"It doesn't matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop."

I'm having one of those....turn off your cell phone at 8pm, and leave it off....nights. Weeks, really. Life is moving so quickly. And the reason is that it is so full. So deep and so wide. So adult. But I kind of just want to be a kid. I've never really just simply gotten to be a kid. I'm just tired. Just feeling alone, feeling like I have failed.

A teacher today told me to always seek alternative routes. So I'm seeking an alternative to my typical wallow in my defeat route everytime I get overwhelmed. I am not stopping - I am not breaking down and giving up. I am simply moving more slowly for the time, recharging a bit, but moving.

Really it just shows that I'm getting stronger, I'm getting better at this. Even if I don't want to be stronger or better, it seems the child inside me, that wants so badly to come out, is dying. and making more room for the adult in me to fully take hold. The ultimate bittersweet situation, wouldn't you say?

Content

It tends to be disruptive when material is presented as fact, when in fact, under a seperate context it would simply not be so.

take caution.