I'm not suggesting I have something. But I think perhaps I have tendencies in a certain direction at the moment, and perhaps the situation could be remedied by following a certain, well, remedy.
I have nights where I'll lay in bed and feel completely accomplished. Not in life, not in matters of business of financials, just in the sense that I did all I possibly could today; filling every moment with productivity, creative thought, etc. It's with that satisfaction that I mosy off to sleep.
...Only wake to a day where I can't seem to find a direction to begin in. I'm losing ammo by firing aimlessly into a crowd and I just spin, dizzily, onto the floor where I weep until the sun goes down. There is no clarity in my mind on days like this. Maybe its a synesthesia thing, maybe it's..whatever. At any rate, there is no feelings of "depression", or hills and valleys like in traditional bi-polar disorder. It's almost just as if my focus is bi-polar...
