FABRICATED

I know this road. I've driven it a million and a quarter times on my way one place or another, in my 20 years living here. I know this bend, I know there's a field there to my right, it's all subconscious, natural, comfortable. What's different today though, is that the sun happens to be setting, and the leaves were glowing in that way that means the chlorophyll that kept them green for us all summer has worn out, and so their showing off their undertones of color and letting that be reflected by the light. And reflecting it was! I was so distracted, so in awe.. I had to pull over!

Thus stems my little rant -- if one can't notice things like that anymore, where are we?...innocence in children staring at you with wide eyes, sunsets worth being recorded and treasured for all time, breezes, smiles? and the lack of chlorophyll everywhere this time of year? If we are so wrapped up in who Blair slept with on Gossip Girl, how will we ever remember to notice how beautiful this world is? I'm not saying you have to be a complete blah ooing and awing all the time, but just at least notice!


Here's the thing though: if this life of fabrication and drama is all anyone ever knows; it becomes their life, and they start missing out on all the naturally occuring beauties that this world has to offer!

(I know what you're thinking -- stop it!)

It's an art form, almost, I think: Noticing the little beauties like this. But it takes time (which is something people think they don't have anymore) and it takes a bit of relaxation. Happiness is simply pure relaxation. I challenge you to look around today. Just look around.

So many people are wrapped up in preserving the earth, minimizing carbon footprints, the works! (Love you Green-Freaks, really I do!) But really, what if we just pay more attention to it. Love on it and appreciate it. I think that's all anything or anyone really needs. The earth just feels ignored. It whispers "Good Morning" to you every day with a sunrise, and tickles you all day with the wind. Tucks you in at night with the sunset, and keeps the light on with the stars. I think that if for one second we allow ourselves to loosen our grip on our fabricated lives, we can see how genuinely valuable life is naturally.

Love is the only thing thing we have
to give back to God.

If you're gonna say it, mean it.

Photo By Leighann Kowalsky. All Rights Reserved.

So, I'm on a bit of a quest here for clarification of a commonly used phrase that I've come to despise over the months of mulling that I've done. Don't think this is one of those fleeting, radical, attention seeking blobs of a vent. I have been really analyzing this, trying to assign words to my thoughts for quite some time. Quality ahead. Continue.

I'm a busy being. I don't get to keep up with the goings on of everyone I've ever become acquainted with. So all I ever here is "I miss you".

They all "miss me". We all "miss" eachother. We don't post, "lets meet up on saturday, or anytime, really!" on someones Facebook. We simply express that we "miss" them.

Why can't someone say, "I love you" or "I care about you" or "I'm thinking of you " ? Ever? There's such an absence of emotion in "I miss you". It's empty, lacking effort, sort of ironic, isn't it? The phrase "I miss you" is missing something deeper...

It has become a lazy way of saying "Remembered you for a sec...don't really care what's new...just want you to recall that I breathe in an oxygen mix of air, and breathe it out shortly thereafter".

I sought out what the phrase "I miss you" really means, or really should mean. I think I'll start using some of these instead.

• fail to perceive or to catch with the senses or the mind;
• feel or suffer from the lack of;
• fail to attend an event or activity;
  
• neglect: leave undone or leave out;
  
• fail to reach or get to;
  
• be without;
  
• fail to experience;

What I just don't like, is why it's so easy them to say "I miss you", and so hard for me to really believe it.