When a person commits suicide,
they are robbing their soulmate, of their soulmate.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Adult vs. Child
So for ages, my question has been: Am I crazy or are they?
I know I don't process things the same as most people in this society.
I know my critical thinking leads to a destination that most just don't go to.
Is that my error or theirs? Is it an error?
I had determined, to each his own. We've all lived our own experiences.
My childhood and upbringing has been significantly different than most.
So then, that makes sense. I've been thinking like an adult since Age 9.
Of course I'll come to different conclusions than the children I'm surrounded by.
For a while I was convinced of that. But why is it then - that even some of these adults,
are not actually behaving like adults?
I think I've honestly come to a rather harsh - seemingly prideful - but honestly humble - conclusion that it's really a difference in smart or not smart.
I think there's a bit of wisdom and knowledge that I've sponged up, that others just seem to be disinterested in.
I'm just not interested in letting the real world smack me in the face. I'd much rather smack IT in the face before it even expects me.
Rock.
I know I don't process things the same as most people in this society.
I know my critical thinking leads to a destination that most just don't go to.
Is that my error or theirs? Is it an error?
I had determined, to each his own. We've all lived our own experiences.
My childhood and upbringing has been significantly different than most.
So then, that makes sense. I've been thinking like an adult since Age 9.
Of course I'll come to different conclusions than the children I'm surrounded by.
For a while I was convinced of that. But why is it then - that even some of these adults,
are not actually behaving like adults?
I think I've honestly come to a rather harsh - seemingly prideful - but honestly humble - conclusion that it's really a difference in smart or not smart.
I think there's a bit of wisdom and knowledge that I've sponged up, that others just seem to be disinterested in.
I'm just not interested in letting the real world smack me in the face. I'd much rather smack IT in the face before it even expects me.
Rock.
Monday, February 6, 2012
Battery
I've had an interesting analogy in my head lately that I've been working on analyzing and seeing through as a full thought.
I recently replaced the battery on my cute little old as the dickens macbook.
I replaced the battery because I acted on assumption that it's refusal to hold a charge was the cause of it's demise.
Once the battery was replaced, I learned it was the charger that had really gone sour.
The source of power, not the warehouse of power, is what was hurt.
With all these fancy apple products, someone once told me it's best for the life of the device (and the battery of the device) to charge it full, and then let it die. Never letting it sit on a charger for too long, and never letting it rest "dead" for too long - But always letting it go from one extreme to the next.
And now that I've prefaced this whole bit quite thoroughly, I'd like to challenge you.
I feel like a battery. I feel like I need to recharge to 100% - but not a drop more. And then completely exude all power within me until I am - theoretically - dead. The cycle continues as I disallow myself to remain "dead" too long, and rather, recharge to 100%. I can't let myself only recharge 50%. I can't recharge myself before I give 50% either. Full, Whole, Healthy - Extreme.
We take care of our apple products so well, but let's work on ourselves, too!
I recently replaced the battery on my cute little old as the dickens macbook.
I replaced the battery because I acted on assumption that it's refusal to hold a charge was the cause of it's demise.
Once the battery was replaced, I learned it was the charger that had really gone sour.
The source of power, not the warehouse of power, is what was hurt.
With all these fancy apple products, someone once told me it's best for the life of the device (and the battery of the device) to charge it full, and then let it die. Never letting it sit on a charger for too long, and never letting it rest "dead" for too long - But always letting it go from one extreme to the next.
And now that I've prefaced this whole bit quite thoroughly, I'd like to challenge you.
I feel like a battery. I feel like I need to recharge to 100% - but not a drop more. And then completely exude all power within me until I am - theoretically - dead. The cycle continues as I disallow myself to remain "dead" too long, and rather, recharge to 100%. I can't let myself only recharge 50%. I can't recharge myself before I give 50% either. Full, Whole, Healthy - Extreme.
We take care of our apple products so well, but let's work on ourselves, too!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Thursday, December 15, 2011
heels down
I swear I have my heels down and am being dragged into the new year.
As excited as I am for some huge changes, both in act and theory, I am increasingly shocked by the speed at which the last year went by, and thus begin to fear I'm getting old, getting slow.
Heels down.
As excited as I am for some huge changes, both in act and theory, I am increasingly shocked by the speed at which the last year went by, and thus begin to fear I'm getting old, getting slow.
Heels down.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
don't stop
"It doesn't matter how slowly you go, as long as you do not stop."
I'm having one of those....turn off your cell phone at 8pm, and leave it off....nights. Weeks, really. Life is moving so quickly. And the reason is that it is so full. So deep and so wide. So adult. But I kind of just want to be a kid. I've never really just simply gotten to be a kid. I'm just tired. Just feeling alone, feeling like I have failed.
A teacher today told me to always seek alternative routes. So I'm seeking an alternative to my typical wallow in my defeat route everytime I get overwhelmed. I am not stopping - I am not breaking down and giving up. I am simply moving more slowly for the time, recharging a bit, but moving.
Really it just shows that I'm getting stronger, I'm getting better at this. Even if I don't want to be stronger or better, it seems the child inside me, that wants so badly to come out, is dying. and making more room for the adult in me to fully take hold. The ultimate bittersweet situation, wouldn't you say?
I'm having one of those....turn off your cell phone at 8pm, and leave it off....nights. Weeks, really. Life is moving so quickly. And the reason is that it is so full. So deep and so wide. So adult. But I kind of just want to be a kid. I've never really just simply gotten to be a kid. I'm just tired. Just feeling alone, feeling like I have failed.
A teacher today told me to always seek alternative routes. So I'm seeking an alternative to my typical wallow in my defeat route everytime I get overwhelmed. I am not stopping - I am not breaking down and giving up. I am simply moving more slowly for the time, recharging a bit, but moving.
Really it just shows that I'm getting stronger, I'm getting better at this. Even if I don't want to be stronger or better, it seems the child inside me, that wants so badly to come out, is dying. and making more room for the adult in me to fully take hold. The ultimate bittersweet situation, wouldn't you say?
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Content
It tends to be disruptive when material is presented as fact, when in fact, under a seperate context it would simply not be so.
take caution.
take caution.
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